Have you ever had one of those days where you just want to quit? Of course you have, everyone does. Tuesday I was so exhausted, in absolutely no mood to go to the gym, but as I do most days I forced myself. JUST DO IT. I’m driving to the gym and I’m literally almost falling asleep at the wheel. I swear I almost turned the car around about 5 times. I finally make it, and the only reason why is because on Tuesdays at my gym (equinox merrick park) is my favorite class of the whole week. It’s really not working out; it’s a relaxing type of yoga class. But it’s great if you’re sore from past workouts and it motivates me to go and do spinning or some other type of cardio after the class is done. The teacher that does the class is probably the best part about the class, she’s great and she gets it. The week before there was a sub and I was already sitting there with my mat, so not to be rude I stayed and endured the sub's class, which of course did not compare to our amazing teacher. This week I decided I would not be fooled twice. I wait outside the class until I see who the teacher is going to be and low and behold it’s a sub again. I was so mad I really just wanted to get out of the gym and go home. I was not going to take that class again with a sub, because honestly it’s not the same its not even close. So I say to myself “No Vanessa, you’re here already do some cardio". I walk upstairs to get my headphones and guess what.... the buds to my headphones have fallen out and I can’t find them anywhere!!!! I don’t know if you believe in signs but do you need anymore sings from the universe telling you maybe today is just not your day. Feeling guilty from weekend eatings I don’t go home, and I force myself on the elliptical for the bear minimum of 30 minutes of cardio. With no music. It was the worst workout ever. This only shows me the next time I feel like turning around and going home to take a nap while I'm driving to the gym, I’m going to do it!

my love for you

THE MAGNIFICENCE THAT IS GLEE! O-M-G! Let me share a little bit of the reasons why I am oh so in love, so infatuated/obsessed with all that is Glee. Now I have to be honest when I first heard about Glee I was…a hater (so embarrassed). I wanted nothing to do with Glee, I felt it was going to be another show that tried to be like high school musical (which I am so not a fan of). Boy was I mistaken. It all started when I was watching the golden globes this past spring, the cast of Glee caught my attention like no show had done since Mad Men won their first globe three years ago. How genuinely happy and humble these young people looked while they were being interviews, doing press, and receiving their award kind of made me want to fall in love with them. Still I was so caught up watching other TV (mostly junk) it kept slipping my mind to put glee on my season pass manager on TiVo. Until I go to my boyfriend's sister graduation, and her room mate has the latest episode of glee on their TiVo, with not much else to do, we saw Glee. I have never turned back!!! It is beyond amazing, yes its in high school but the topics they do each episode are topics that any person can familiarize with, doesn’t matter if you are 16 or 86. You’ve been there, you associate yourself with the Glee club members, and who doesn’t love an underdog?!?!? Don’t let Glee fool you though, these beautiful high schoolers have never really been underdogs. The show is a hit, beyond a hit it’s a gold mind. Every song glee re-makes shoots up to the top of the itunes list. Rumors are there’s a tour being planned for next summer, and this person right here plans to be dancing front and center. It’s a phenomenon and I am sad I wasn’t a fan from day one. But I am more than a fan now, and this fan is beyond ecstatic fox is replaying the show from the beginning every Thursday this summer. I get to fall in love with Glee from the beginning like I always should have.

How Old am I?

My birthday is about two and half weeks away and the month of June is being kind of an emotional one for me. As I get to the tail end of my 20s I can’t help but think that nothing has turned out how I thought it would. I can’t really place my finger on what it is. Truthfully, I never really thought I would be married by now, and I definitely never thought I would have had children before I was 30 but something is missing. Maybe its a lack of change I feel like I need something to force some type of change in my life. Though, I have had ALOT of change in last couple of years. Hmm, this is what I mean, I cant exactly place my finger on it, maybe its just aging. For some reason I am very emotional about turning twenty-eight. I have been thinking all week about what can possibly make me feel better about this situation, but I have yet to find the solution. Life is hard, and when you’re young you don’t want to believe it, but it is. I remember when older people would say to me "what id give to be twenty-two again" or "if I only knew then what I know now" we’ve all heard them. When I was young(er) I use to think “ok crazy person leave me alone”, but it is so TRUE. I don’t want to be twenty-two, that is for sure, I love my age. There is something so beautiful about aging and realizing what is truly important to you, what makes you genuinely happy, and evolving into a real adult. Though, I have to admit I do kind of wish I knew when I was twenty-two what I know now. YES, I do.